Tuesday 5 June 2012

6-6-2012 **

兜兜转转在办公室也已有八个月长了

这次的决定真的很难选择

离开了这里就要跟家人分开了

真的很不舍得

这次如果真的离开了以后可能要三十岁才能再回来了

也或许再也回不来了

这次的离开也不打算告诉任何人

以影响我的心情

今天告诉了老板我得离职的事后

感觉到一切都无法回头了

但,

我这次的离去是否像我想象中的那样?

让我心烦的事就是,

当我告诉我离职的事情后老板又给了一些更好的东西

也就是我还没有要离开前想要的东西

其实我真的很想立刻就做决定

但是我还怕我的冲动会让我又再次的后悔

我真的在怀疑你们对我的赞美

究竟是真的在赞我还是因为要留下我的心帮你工作?

我承认你对我真的很好

但是,

如果有一天多一个比我厉害的人出现时我还是像今天在你心中的我吗?

社会的生活真的让我感觉到很混乱

无忧无虑,小孩子的生活还是比较适合我

也许我也是你们说的吧

小孩子

但是我真的就只是这么巧做得到这些东西出来罢了

我并不是你们所说的这么厉害

心里的话有谁会懂?

到现在没有一个真正了解我的人

真的很孤僻 

好累 :'(

这次的离开后就只剩下部落格陪着我了

Saturday 21 April 2012

21-4-2012 ** Happy Day


Going MBO cinema watch "We Not Naughty" again ...

Before i go in... 

I saw the queue until the door...

I got a feel...

 'Walao. Queue so long ?'

And i need the ticket for 3.50PM

But now already 2.00 PM

After that i saw many person using the new member card to purchase...

First i go ask a young boy to help me buy it...

They ignore my request. =(

Second time i go and beg a uncle to help me...

The uncle face like don want...

But... 

I use my professional mouth and give him some money to ask him to help me. 

Omg...

I bought expensive ticket. 
  


This is first time i meet a friend cant speak mandarin ...

And also first time got a friend singing and laughing more then talk to me. T.T

Alamak...

My english really...

KANASAI

When i talking with customer i never to be like this...

How come when talk to friend will be like this ?

Foolish :c

Have to improve my language.

Monday 16 April 2012

17-4-2012 **

Haiz ...

Care a person too much really just make ourself sad ...

But i not only care one person...

I care all of my friend...

Sometime i really think that they treat me as friend..

But.. When i need help...

Cant see anyone give u the answer and starting ignore u...

Is that call friend ?

Our gang so around 20-30 people i think only few person are really treat me as friend...

Still got 2more.
From KL !

They are quite nice for me...

At least not the person just know how to see money !

Friend friend !
Buddy !
BROTHER ! 

WTF ?

What that ?
How many person will really care about this ?

People everyday emo for love.

I feel that they are stupid...

When i think on me...

I emo for those see me as wind...

That time i really feel that i just an idiot..

=C

Cause i poor ? No money ?

Cause i ugly ?

Or cause i really an idiot ? :'(

Wednesday 4 April 2012

4-5-2012 **

Happy birthday to me...

This is the first time i pay for my birthday when celebrate with friend.
But...

Omg..
My wallet...
Slim jor.. =(

Guys.
Thanks.

Tomorrow got one more time to pay.
Hahaha...

It's a birthday dinner i ready for all my buddy...
Also first time i make this...

But i think no more second time also lor...

Cause I'm not that rich also
lol

Just now we went to Track7 At Hills shopping mall...

Omg..
I feel that i forgot to get back the balance with the cashier. 

My money...

But can try to get the feel that i like the big boss...
Just think that i give them tips. =P

Wow.
Great xDD

But now...
My sound are damn sexy and my head dizzy now.

Ohh yeah...

Tomorrow Morning Going out again...

Going to spring shopping mall..

I want to play the game !!
Racing car...
Basketball !!! ** I am pro here.. Want Challenge me ? =P
and more !!!!!!!!!!

The second month i spend over...
Last time i was like that too...
Within 15days used RM1500...
Can't imagine that how much i need to spend for this month.
Eww...


Must save money for my bank bank jor..

But i want to travel ! =(

I miss the traveling time...

I want to go KL find my friend..

Go Taiwan play...

Go for MayDay Concert...

Go Thailand Play !!!

Go Sabah !!!

And more more more i wanna to go...

And the most important one...




Omg !!!

Really envy those boy who have a nice body...

I wish that i can be like them...

Recently i keep swimming and swimming...

But i don like to go gym...

Cause i think that my body big enough jor...
Hahaha

Trying to do it at home and without gym...


Good luck for me...

Jackson Chaw.
Shang Yat Fai Lok 

Monday 5 March 2012

3-6-2012 **

怎么了最近?

心情又来了

今天还睡到六点钟就醒了

真想快点过了这段时间

这段路真的让我的心情很忐忑

有些东西不是我们想要就能做到的

有时真的不能不理其它人的眼光

我很在乎别人对我的眼光

所以

原谅我的自私

请你忘了我吧

我真的不想要这样了

一切都是假希望

我做不到我所说的东西

对不起

谢谢你对我的好...


Sunday 19 February 2012

19-1-2012 **

淡了也累了

一切的希望都已经没有了

牺牲了自己但却换来了一片空白和空虚

换来以前会这样?

如果是以前我不信会有这种时间

现在是怎么了?

以前的我呢?

还是以前的我也是这样的!?

以前的我有很多笑容的!!

我记得!

在我冷静时人家也觉得我在笑

还曾有人叫我开心果

但是现在我连开心的感觉都得不到了

真的好累啊

现在半夜也睡不着

感觉到身体慢慢的衰退了

不甘心 !

我才22岁呢 !

但是自己就是这么懒 !

现在打球的时间也没了

好想再出场打球 !!

好怀念以前在球场上的威风

比赛的感觉

球场上的威风,大声笑的笑声!

你们哪儿去了啊?

我好怀念你们呀!

Monday 30 January 2012

30-1-2012 **

今年新年的娱乐就是赌博

天天可以说都在赌

生活?

目标?

朋友?

全部都是空白的

可以在支撑多久?

还能耐多久?

还有几个是在我身边的?

我要的全部都是白日梦

我的梦几时才能醒过来?

一天我消失了还有谁会记得我?

如果我再没有利用价值电话还会不会响?

有什么可以过得容易点

快乐点

不要带着这些东西过

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

真的找不到自己的目标

也完成不了想要的东西

做了的东西也没件是让人看得起

废物?

垃圾?

再也没有以前的冲刺

就是这样让人家看不起。